It’s been three years. Three years since we talked like this. Every success and challenge that could make me give this up happened. I got very busy with work, I got very busy with figuring out how to be a good father and husband. I got super lazy with God. How could I take a minute to write when I couldn’t take a second to connect with Him? I questioned what gave me the moral authority to have Godly conversations. I got my fair share of trials and tribulations.
The thought of reviving Goldinwords felt so draining. Things got bleaker when the site was hacked and everything disappeared. I set and missed so many deadlines. There were a thousand voices in my head. They constantly explained with diagrams why giving up on this would be the smartest thing.
The Turning Point
In the trenches of one of those dark hours, it slapped me! It’s not about me or mine. All my distractions and proclivities, all the pleasures and triumphs that took me from this commitment, they weren’t about me. Something greatly dreads what could happen if we are diligent with what God’s laid on our hearts to do.
One of my strengths -and weaknesses- is reckless curiosity. So as I savoured the slap, my reckless curiosity was kindled; what would happen if I returned to writing and did it consistently for years? I don’t know the answer, but now I’m obsessed with finding out. That obsession is married to an indescribable fulfilment I feel with this decision to return for good.
I feel so strongly that our conversations will lead us both into new heights of graciousness. It will force out the best in us, help us fight and win the battles life throws at us. In time, we will discover the amazing endgame we nearly gave up on. It will lead us closer to Him.
Remember How Amazing It Was To Connect?
It’s Not About You!
I can’t tell you how difficult it’s been coming around to this point. But I want you to take this one thing from today’s conversation; it’s not about you. All the things that enrage you and preoccupy you and encapsulate you and inundate you…you aren’t the target; the impact you’d make if you were diligent with your potential…that’s the target!
Brush the dust off, AND PUSH ON!
Special ‘shallout’ to everyone who kept checking in. You’re a huge part of this return. Also, take a look around. Tell me what you think of this new site; does it work? Holler!
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So glad the blog is back!!!! I have missed your musings and insights for sure! Thank you for your obedience to the call(ing)!